getting over it...

1 pt whom i love dearly had discharged. i am glad for her yet i didn't managed to say byebye to her. i don't wish to see her in the ward again so i think i won't get the chance to say byebye to her ever again. =(

her condition was a common thing and to see her stay for awhile is just as normal. but the MRSA and the Virus shit makes me angry, if not those these and that she would had been long discharged. then... came the earth shaking news. there was a mass somewhere in her organ. not sure if those were as affected but i was. i was very! so affected that i don't know how to face her, what to say to her. i was so sad. because i was sad and unsure of how to face the new diagnosis and her, i missed the chance to sit and speak to her before she was discharged. ='(

i wish her well and will always keep her in my prayers. at least thru this i learnt 1 simply lesson- not to waste time. we can keep feeling sad and angry for whatever happenings but while doing so we are in fact precious time in doing such worthless things. we should look beyond our feelings at times and do what would be better- spending more time and caring for each other more.