Tuesday, October 19, 2010
tired n bored
had been clearing stuff from the house. it had been really tiring but rewarding to see the useless stuffs cleared. but the more i dig the more such useless junk pops out. am i living in a can or worms or what? i am so bored with all those manual work now! yet i had started and now the house is in a big mess! gosh!! i can't stop til i have at least clear the standing junk. my energy is totally drained! lucky for me, no cell at my place this week so i can let the junk stock up over the weekend! =) the only perk? *sigh*
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Faith
faith is believing despite not seeing. there was once a pastor who tried to explain faith, he describe it as: when we sit on a chair we trust that it will hold out weight and that is fatih of some sort. very abstract but at that time, i didn't really have an issue with having faith in God so i didn't think much of it.
recently i found another way of making faith easy to understand- by my experience. =) being preg. i realise there are days i would wake up feeling normal - not preg. at all. without the ultra super bump some mummies are spotted with, i just feel fine and perhaps a little fatter. sometime i would get a little panicky and wonder if the baby is indeed inside me and growing?! it really take faith to believe in what may not be seen with the nake eyes but still it is indeed there cuz we can sense it and there is always signs of it being present. for my case- an amazing dark line that appear out of nowhere running down the middle of my tummy. =)) how amazing!! =))
there are times when God seems really really real - esp. when He answer a prayer for a particular thing, there are times when we feel Him far and wonder if He really care or even hear our cries. regardless of them all, God is still present and it takes faith to believe He is indeed there for us. =)) On days of my ultrasound, i may get to see little baby's heartbeat and get affirmed of this little life-force in me but on days when i don't get to see that pounding little heart, i believe that the little life substaining organ is still present and pumping. =)
being who and what i am today had allow me to understand God a little deeper but yet His ways are higher and not mine, i don't think i will ever fully understand how He feels for all of us earthlings. =) yet i am glad to devote my life time to know Him more each day and season of my life. =)
recently i found another way of making faith easy to understand- by my experience. =) being preg. i realise there are days i would wake up feeling normal - not preg. at all. without the ultra super bump some mummies are spotted with, i just feel fine and perhaps a little fatter. sometime i would get a little panicky and wonder if the baby is indeed inside me and growing?! it really take faith to believe in what may not be seen with the nake eyes but still it is indeed there cuz we can sense it and there is always signs of it being present. for my case- an amazing dark line that appear out of nowhere running down the middle of my tummy. =)) how amazing!! =))
there are times when God seems really really real - esp. when He answer a prayer for a particular thing, there are times when we feel Him far and wonder if He really care or even hear our cries. regardless of them all, God is still present and it takes faith to believe He is indeed there for us. =)) On days of my ultrasound, i may get to see little baby's heartbeat and get affirmed of this little life-force in me but on days when i don't get to see that pounding little heart, i believe that the little life substaining organ is still present and pumping. =)
being who and what i am today had allow me to understand God a little deeper but yet His ways are higher and not mine, i don't think i will ever fully understand how He feels for all of us earthlings. =) yet i am glad to devote my life time to know Him more each day and season of my life. =)
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