movies

there are interesting movies i want to watch when they are finally here in singapore. hopefully in march when i am less busy but i bet that water horse will be in june when the kids are on holidays. either case i am fine. =P




for cj7 i really wish i could get to watch the cantonese version! =) maybe travel into JB and watch. hopefully they will have the cantonese version. if not i will just wait for the dvd. =)

the savages-movie

finally got down to watch the savages. very very disappointing. perhaps i am not a very arty person, i can't fully appreciate it like those sitting in the academy award committee. =(

i loved the plot and was full of expectation for the movie. i was hoping for touching scenes, tearful reunions and farewells but... i sat in the cinema for 2 hrs looking at an adult daughter who was fixated with her 'troubled' childhood and a very cool-minded son bonding to 'care' for their father. 'care' in this sense was just placing him in a nursing home. *sigh* i was hoping for scenes where they would be trying to care for him themselves and end up having being burnt out. that will be damn touching and tearful! but... but...they are afterall ang moh! =( personally i thot more can be build on, in the movie.

there was nothing to bring home after the movie. =( although there wasn't a clear indication if the daughter ended her relationship with that married man or if her brother finally managed to muster up enough courage to hold on to his polish gf, i wasn't too bothered to care or think abt it.

maybe i saw too much real life incidents of how family/ children react to their ill parents? or death just isn't too big a deal to me now. i found myself mocking at the unrealistic flow of how a person with vascular dementia dies so fast after his initial diagnosis! 1st the dr said the father is in his initial stage but as the illness progress he will be more ill and stuff. then barely wthin months (in fact i think its only within 1 month!) he dies! *puzzled*

27 dresses

27 dresses

finally watched 27 dresses. =) a chic-fick. thus thus... it was certainly not what my hubby will want to watch. (or is that what i assume?) anyway, watching such movie is more fun when its done with girl-friends. tata... so girl-friend it was... i went to catch the movie with Jo and Sharon after work.

since i had seen the trailers i had in mind what and where the funnies are. (i always do lots of research on stuff i am interested in. ) after the movie, i could conclude i still like it. although it can be better but since its Katherine Heigl, i can let everything else pass. haha... =P

movie price hike!

its so sad... cathay is going to up their cinema price from feb onwards. if every cinema follow suit it will be pushing more people towards either buying/rent (legal/ illegal) vcd/dvd rather than watching it on the big screen or causing more people to travel to malaysia JB to watch movies.

afterall movies unlike food, its not something we need to satisfy our desire/ body with- STAT. we can plan and then schedule it to fit our timing, company and even budget! and if all fail... there is always the internet to fall back on.

to spend $10 on a movie for a mere 2 hrs? excuse me, i would rather watch the movie 1 month later in in the comfort of my home with my friends and family while spending perhaps lesser than that amount! concerning the benefits of watching the movie at home is plenty! i can pause, rewind or fast forward parts of the movie to customerise to my needs and fancy. i can pop into the toliet, sit/ lie on the chair/bed and i can even watch it in my pajamas! while the only disadvantage may be the reducation of the sound system, the effect and the lapse in time between the release vs me watching it. but...so wat??

why do i watch movies? cuz i think the story interest me. just like reading a book, does it matter if i read a book on the day of its release or 3 yrs after? if its good, i will still like it wat? so... the only reason for me to watch movie in the cinema is... since not all of the movies are cut into dvd/vcd so if i miss it, i will miss it forever. but if the price really hike to $10/ movie. honestly i will just forget abt movies altogether and pick up a book. afterall lots of good movies are adopted from good books.

chocolate

was reading the reader digest and saw the article on chocolate called "choctalk" from pg140, reader digest feb 2008 issue.

it spoke about chocolate being a medicine and health food. then rounding it up by advising us to limit our intake of it. as i was thinking of chocolate as a medication, a wild thought pop up. imagine if chocolate is indeed a medication, the part of sign and symptom of a chocolate overdose will be...state of euphoria!? if that's the case what should its anecdote be? strawberry??

movies time!

i am torn between watching this savages or that 27 dresses. hmm... i think i will watch the both of them on the monday. afterall its cheaper on monday! =))

Synopsis (the savages)
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An irreverent, heartbreaking story revolving around a modern American family. This film portrays an all-too-common dilemma: after drifting apart emotionally and geographically over the years, two single siblings Wendy (Laura Linney) and Jon (Philip Seymour Hoffman) must band together to care for an elderly parent (Philip Bosco). Visiting their father in his nursing home and their father's eventual death helps each sibling to better deal with their love relationships with others.




Synopsis (27 dresses)
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Jane is idealistic, romantic and completely selfless - a perennial bridesmaid whose own happy ending is nowhere in sight. But when younger sister Tess captures the heart of Janes boss with whom she is secretly in love - Jane begins to reexamine her always-a-bridesmaid.... lifestyle.

prediction for the yr of the rat

some fortune-tellers had already given their prediction for this coming yr of the rat. i heard from a frd (whom is also a 'horse') that this yr is a bad yr for all 'horses'(that must be like billion of us ard, ba? apparently, he said 'horses' will have sad events in the family, no luck with gambling and romance, couples will fight and blah blah blah. his conclusion? his dad will pass away this yr, and he will have no luck in getting a gf at the age of 30! his concerns are real but the problem is the yr of the pig was also terrible for him despite it supposedly a good yr for 'horses' wor. so if i am to take that smooth-sayer prediction to be 100% real then i better stop betting on YP's bb's gender! LOL... cuz i will lost BIG BIG time sia!

oh! Cdy always say she and me can set up store in Queens-Street for fortune-telling with our crystal balls! so... i am going to attempt to looking into my crystal earring (since i have no crystal balls. *wink* LOL) to predict for my room's fortune in the year of the rat. hehee...

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with some famous black stars ard. i bet the room will see more DIL, resus and CCOD ard. high MC rates too due to?? mis-communication may be a problem too with the write less in NR and dump everything else in NCR special mention act. since the room will be more busy than previously (due to dil/resus/etc), there may be increase complaint and possible RMS cuz not enough manpower to 'watch' over or attend to every TLC requirement/ stubborn ladies. hmm... now to rephase everything to make it some professional and like real...
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room 2E is even digital plus everyone in it is female thus carry with it a strong sense of Yin. plus female are often associated with the characteristic of Water. making the room Yin + Water.

2008 is Earth Rat(Yang). however Rat brings with it Female Water, according to Chinese astrology calendar. Water in Chinese astrology represents cold, black, wisdom and lust.

so as water pushing water forward (like sea current), rm 2E can expect lots of new changes in the coming yr. new pple, new policies/duties. along with these changes, new talants will be unearthed and wisdom gained but do take get care to avoid all possible office politics. backstabbing and selfishness will be at all time high. single ladies may have possiblity of finding new romance in/at the workplace but be careful to differential the attraction between lust vs love.

general prediction for 2008 we (rm 2E) will have->
more unfortune events (eg.death cases, RMS, complaints, staff falling sick)
increase mis-communication (maybe cuz by poorer f/u, documentation)
OVERALL->poorer team performance

suggestion->
place purple objects on places where communication are often carried out
grow little potted plants. wood neturalise water but who doesn't enjoy seeing pretty plants/ flowers ard?
have more male (cute Drs?) to be in the workplace to increase the yang and balance the yin.

MC?!

after my post on XH, i actually felt quite bad commenting on other like that. even Jk think i am not too right and he thinks i am over sensitive about things. heehee... i was thinking should i pull that entry down. then... came my shock of the day... at 7am!

knowing i have my baby 'slave' (heehee..), 1 jr and 1 floater with me this morning. so i was happy to slowly strolled into ward and makan a little before i start my work. at 7.30am, after passing the central message, OngL told me that XH is on MC. i told XH called but apparently it was OngL asking a question! aiyo... to make things worst, our call list was not updated with the new girls' numbers! so AgNC M had to call upstair and call XH. then only we found out she was on MC. aiyoo... upset with me don't want to work also must call in if on MC mah. wait til last min., pple call u then tell so irresponsible. lucky we got 1 floater OngL to standby. so she became my jr. this charbo damn cool sia, her sponging within 10mins can complete one lor. so with most of my pts walker case by 9.45am our dressing and morning rountine was completed! woohoo... so not used to it! LOL! but got to thanks the ite girl and those helpful, co-operative maids + patients. =)

now back to the issue with MC. i understand the mentality of pple wanting to take mc, afterall i was once that too. =P #1 reason- the person is really sick, #2 reason- person don't feel like working that day. for both of the reasons, i think its really basic etiquette for the person to inform early esp. in our health-care setting. what if the manpower was cut too lean and there was really not enough people to move around to meet the needs for that shift? calling in early can at least allow some time for others to shift the other people/duties around to cover the void caused by the person on MC.

i used to be take advantage of the 14 days MC quota of my ex-company and my anemaic look. i will turn up to the GP complaining of this and that, almost without fail i will always get an MC for at least 1 day. but whenever i call in sick, i will do a mental schedule- do i have outstanding stuff to finish or any meeting to attending that day? no, then i will throw in mc but if yes, then i will struggle to work regardless of. back then i was working on project base work, time-lines are often set and as long as i get my project done by that due-date, i am fine. its a very individual thing, i won't affect anything or anyone to great extend. BUT health-care ... CANNOT lar! i will describe our ward setting as a braided rope if 1 person (representing 1 strand of line/fiber) decided to snap or to not function properly, it will not only tax the rest braided together but may even cuz the entire rope to fray and thus un-usable! when that happen, the rope is useless and even harmful for usage! imagine the poor pts under such care. *sigh*

normal rumbles...again

a new girl had just join our room. initially i thought she will be nice and fun to work with. but... i think i may be wrong! *pull my hair* perhaps it is in her own manner of breaking the ice, she asked me "you work for many years already? 3-4 yrs?" then when i told her 1yr+ only lar. she then said "oh, same as me lar" then she went on to say that nurses in her ward get confirmed only after 1yr. makes me wonder... did it take us 1 yr?! and she said her probation was 1.5yrs! *faint* at that time i almost saw our infamous Mly's face matching into Xh's! another one of Mdm M?! *faint* since she is a jr, i expected her to be focusing on her jr work but... she was more keen in doing i/c! kept rooting her ass on the i/c chair there! *faint*

my complaints #1
Xh thinks she is clever than Dr sia! my bed 1 Hb was low so Dr ordered aneamic work-out and GXM for 1 pint PCT. but she tell the Dr "u must take purple and blue tube also" LOL!! the Dr see her not there, even she take all the tubes put on the tray, he only took plain and GXM tubes! then Xh so angry 'throw' the tubes to me and said "he only take these leh" i take a look and said nothing. =P

my complaints #2
since student is in-charge i literally throw everything to her. by now she should know what to do liao lor and she is also smart enough to know if she can't handle or duno anything can and MUST ask lor. but our deaer Xh will KPO KPO go and see what the Dr r/v orders are and keep coming to inform me this and that. aiyo... those time of doing such thing, she can spend doing other more valuable stuff lor. somemore, i was giving those never ending CP+Clox! so i snapped at her and said "ok, i will check. u don't have to report 1 by 1 to me, ok?" i can't stand pple buzzing ard me non-stop sia. and she was so proactively want to do the ic work. *faint* duno how to handle her 'helpfulness'.

my complaint #3
why jiejie never put her with someone senior to guide her for her 1st week in the ward. new surrounding and routine leh, she will need a familiar (more senior) person to guide her along to make her feel at home mah. but no loh... she was thrown straight into the deep sea to do jr. hmm... i bet she must be complaining to her ex-ward frds! pity her. cuz i may be friendly but at work i am just interested in my work and not other stuff. if i got extra time on hand i rather value add to my room/ pt's conditions. (eg. tidy casenotes, label files, clear rubbish in the cupboards, top-up forms, etc)

my personal dna?!

jelly sqemish little thing

went to the neonatal ward to send something last night. the staff was carrying a new born in blue clothe. he was so little and almost like a jelly! soft soft one. he was so small but that sucker thing in his mouth is so big! funny...

Commitment - my own theory

ever wonder why most of us are always so hesitate in buying packages for facial/spa, insurances, signing up membership for this and that and sometime even in getting married.

i reasoned it to be the problem with commitment. living as modern human being, we are consistently being exposed to new stuff and options all around us. lets take facial packages for example. assuming i have a really problematic skin with acne, black heads, and wrinkles at the age of 25! my friend brought me to a beautician and i had my 1st trial facial done. after that the beautician came and gave me a sales talk. telling me the fact of my skin condition- which i might already know. then she dished out a package aimed to help me maintain/ improve my skin condition. with no problem on the monetary part, i flatly rejected the offered and left. months later, i then attend the another trial session with yet another company and the cycle repeated with me refusing to sign on a package. these cycles went on and on, during the time of "choosing" my skin remains terrible or even worst- got more severe yet i continued my "quest" for the best treatment ever.

we are always soughting for the best, although its not always a bad thing to strive for the best. but because of the mentality that there is always a better one, a cheaper one or a prettier one out there, somewhere, we continuously search for that something better. but when will the search ends? why do we consistently search for the best while neglecting that sometime it takes more than the BEST to make things sparkles but rather commitment, perseverance and time, for things to become the best that we wish it to be.

being too spoilt by the numerous choices before us, we refused to commit to just 1. while many blame/ think of us as being indecisive or fickle-minded, i think the world is to be blamed too! yes! blame the world for the numerous choices placed before us, fooling us to believe that the BEST HAD YET TO COME! so what is the 1 commitment that u r going to make today?

yes, this is my yr2008-1st my own theory =)

regular grumble

today is a good day... finally! the room is peaceful plus my new work attitude makes it a breeze for me to face myself. i am feel more relax doing things at my own timing and pace. so what if things aren't completed in time? there are still the afternoon to shower and sponge them. as long everyone is alive, fed and clean (relatively).

M came to ask me why are the patients no sitting in chair. i replied, 27-9 can't sit in bed due to pain. then she asked me who said that. i replied well, its my 1st day here and pt said so. then M said okay then, let sit her out for lunch then. ok, was my reply. wow.. i think i was terrible with my attitude with her but i am so much at peace than feeling fearful or terrible for not sitting pt out. hey hey... i sat her up in bed. is there are a different in bed vs chair? both are sitting pt up, isn't it? pts in rm27 are more lovable or maybe its just becuz i am in the mood to appreciate them?

the new trendcare rooster is ok but the only sucky stuff is that we can never know what duty/ area of ic for the next day until REALLY...THE NEXT DAY! *faint* talk abt planning... where's the space required for our NURSES PERSONAL PLANNING?! how exciting to come to work and wonder what and where will i be today. almost like waiting for 4D results sia.

this is my day.

recovering me...

so, here i am sitting in front of the computer, listening to Corrine May (yes...again) and feeling well-rested (i slept for 3 hrs-post work). a well rest body with an at peace mind makes me relax. =)

hours before this, i was tired and grumpy. i felt like i had done so much today only to reflect and realised that i didn't actually do much. most of my patients were sponged by A'z and she did those massive wound dressings too. what had i done to feel so rushed and drained? dealing with demands of the patients? oh well, these are the occasions that i long for stillness and silent of a lab. LOL. yes...yes... i actually do miss my lab work for its stillness and the capability to plan ahead. now... everyday is indeed a challenge- never knowing what to expect. perhaps the only thing we can expect is the consistency in the patients requesting this and that and the unknown. so so.. NURSING IS NOT FOR THE FAINT HEARTEN!

resolution?
a few entry ago, i said that in the yr2008 i don't care if i am nice or sweet-as long as i do what is needed that will be all.
"i need to focus on things that matter. my new year resolution-> no point being nice or going the extra mile just do the needed and focus on the most important." yet, just few days post that resolution, i am starting to dislike this new me. perhaps it take some getting use to? whenever i let my temper flare, i will get this out of body experience (almost). a little liken the story of the Xmas ghost,, seeing myself as a 3rd person! *shiver* although sometime i will think that i did was good cuz i didn't suffer in silence, other (actually most) of the time i am disgusted by that unprofessional act. still... *sigh* i think i really have some unresolved issues to deal with. til then, bear with me.

taxi addiction
as mentioned, i was tired and grumpy earlier. i really wanted to hop on a taxi and shout out my destination. that will save me the walking and the pro-long suffering! who would vote walking on a pair of aching kneecaps over a air-con, cushy ride back home? NOT ME!

but the thought of increased taxi-fare and how silly it is for me to pay DOUBLE for a $3+ ride home. why double? cuz the peak hours sub-charge and other stuff. just that amount alone is enough to send me to my flat. these days, i am going cold turkey on my taxi addiction. in place of it, i am travelling by MRT and bus. on reflection it is at least 10x cheaper! *darn*

blogspot made easy

oh oh... lok at the different things we can add on blogspot without having to know HTML! i am so glad! its fun adding this and shifting that. cool... WELL DONE BLOGSPOT!

textbooks

my dear pals... i will be starting school soon and damn it apart from the pricey school fees, there are still textbooks to purchase. *argh* why can't textbooks be cheap like primary school's? they are so expensive even wtih discounts and so damn heavy-no matter cover is hard or paperback. *grumble grumble grumble* any kind soul willing to chip in a $10 or $20?? email me/ leave a comment. =]

spirituality-cut off from the vine and be died

although i had just recently picked up my Bible and read a few psalms, i am feeling distant. i may be praying but i am not receiving power. i had been to church services and shouted AMEN to the promises and the teaching but left church feeling still defeated. i wonder why but actually i think i know why.

apart from feeling the differences spiritually, i realised that i am "changed" emotionally and physically too.

emotional- i am easier anger and always negative. i am sensitive to people, words and actions (though i was before, it is worst now). for little trival thing i will curse and even plot evilness against the person/ event. nothing seems to spur my interest- not even yummy juicy pretty boys or blood pumping music (although the music did uplift my engery a little).

physical- i have less energy. i am easily tired out and since i had lost interest in stuff, there is even lesser reasons for me to be moving about. i eat and yet still have the "emptiness" feeling within. but when i do eat proper meal, i feel unwell and wants to vomit it out. thus thus... i had gotten even rounder still! damn it right? since i am never thin to start with.

why had all these happened? i still believe in God, i am still anchored in the truth that i will go to Heaven when i die. so what the heck had happened? where is the victorious living, the abundance life?

from: "I AM" by Steve Fry (chpt 2; He gives eternal life, p30)
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There are still others who know enough of God to be secure in his Fatherhood and in the knowledge that they have eternal life, but who simply have grown weary with life here and now. Those who have labored for fruits still unseen; those who have persevered without rewards; those who are subject to the harassment of the enemy and the rejection of people; those who have learned the art of enduring, but have not known the thrill of overcoming-to them the idea that knowing God is the key to a deeply satisfying life now sounds good, but it is no longer believeable. They endeavor to serve him, but have lost their ability to enjoy him. How can i return to the place where the joy of the Lord is my strength? they ask.

...I want to speak: to those riddled wtih disappointment; to those who love God, but have lost the passion for His purpose; and to those whose lives are simply out of focus.

It is not so much that Jesus Christ gives us the answers- He is the answer... Only when we set aside our fears, resentments, and even fatigue and strive to know him and seek him simply for the wonder of who he is-not to get answers, or meet our needs, or receive strength-will we suddenly find our fears, anger, and weariness subsumed by the deluge of joy that comes from discovering God.

in conclusion to my blog entry ->
i am seeking, hope i will find. even if i am seeking for the wrong thing, hope i will be enlighten to know that its the wrong thing then. i personally think...God's love is like an addiction, once tasted of its goodness, no matter how hard i may try to forget it, its just too tough! damn it... do i sound cultic?

falling into place

what can be worst than the feeling of being lost? everyone seems to step into 2008 expecting new things. i used to enjoy such "carefree-ness" but not 100% now. could it be that i am older and less adventurous? maybe...

i stepped into 2008 marking a few events in which i know will happen but with no solid information or plan for it. i hate that sort of suspend! arghh.... hey! i am a problem solver. i can't wait and see what will happen. i must fix these, set them in the right places - either deal with it or forget abt it altogether. life is simpler, isn't it?

a few shitty issues are in my workplan for 2008:
1- study for the nursing deg (finally all settled, at least for the 1st sem)
2- get preg (damn this stupid process, why can't we just buy a baby off the rack?!)
3- make lots of money (any lobangs?)
4- cut down on my dramas (no prob actually cuz nowadays drama plots SUCKS!)

apart from feeling gulity for not spending time with God (which i suspect i am doing it on deliberation), i am rather fine on my own.

hey! i realised 1 thing though... something spiritual.. but that will be for the next entry.

the blog readability test

this is so funny. since i had a few blogs which serving a different purpose, i decided to do a test for each of them. the result was that i have blogs that range from elementary school level to postgrad reading level! this is so funny!! i wonder what is its judging critera. how can it be a postgrad when i am not even 1!! the blog that was elementary level?! i thot it should had scored better!

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that's for my my vox blog-work blog

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that's for my this blogsite personal blog

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that's f or my old site ex-personal blog

quite a joker ya?

focus

i need to focus on things that matter. my new year resolution-> no point being nice or going the extra mile just do the needed and focus on the most important.

yes, i know this resolution is strongly against what i am basically as a human being but i also know that my "helpfulness aka KPOness" had landed me in bags of disappointment and tiring myself out for no point. so i am dropping the rebekah in my name cuz i am no longer the girl that went the extra mile for others. sad huh? but at least i am still who i was... now we are all back to the drawing board...