what he said moved me. watch this short clip on the utube and you will feel the same too. he is a motivational speaker, IT prof and much much more. google if you are interested to know more otherwise get on to the utube and watch more of his other speech.
sometime presenting a speech is no longer to impress others on how well you can present or what visual aids you had prepared. rather its what you have install to impress upon their heart and soul. emotions do sell well but having the emotions that sell and having a great lesson in the speech is more valuable then anything one can think to impress others with.
peace... life is worth the living if we know why we are living it for
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
getting into my nerves!
initially the club was fun and filled with plenty of learning opportunity then.. it became over the edge. its rather oppressing (for me) and almost like a cult! i know... i know... people love the club and if they love it that much, they will always think about it and do everything they can to talk about it. but err...
the initial idea of the club was to gather people to have a healthly meeting, to learn from each other and to brush up each other confidence and speaking ability. but... if we are to take contests to the extreme of counting very single detail and looking for loops to push others into, it doesn't sound too healthy to me. ya.. perhaps it happens to only a few clubs.
ok...next explain to me the need to bomb my inbox with more than necessary notices for 1 simple training. with each email is just REMINDERS after REMINDERS and REMINDERS that list no new informations. if every email contains new information i will say that the planners had some serious planning problem in planning ahead. but if they need to remind the participates for more than 10 times within with 2 months (ok, maybe 3 from the main organiser and the rest from within our our club)...i think there is serious problem with the information dissemination part. i have an evil plan. as much as they enjoy flooding my inbox maybe i will reply 10x for each mail i receieve! haha... that will flood their mail box! but then again... maybe these people crave that sort of attention!??!!?
the club is getting into my nerves! yes yes.. it is... i have a plan... complete whatever i want to and do what i want to. stop nagging at me SH. i hate it when an auntie shh shh... me when i talk or open/ close my bag or drink my water. awiyoo... i have my style mah... *sigh* sometime the club meeting is just too uncomfortably quiet. give me the power i will create some uproars! WATCH ME ROAR! haha...
ok... now back to reading those emails... argh... =N
the initial idea of the club was to gather people to have a healthly meeting, to learn from each other and to brush up each other confidence and speaking ability. but... if we are to take contests to the extreme of counting very single detail and looking for loops to push others into, it doesn't sound too healthy to me. ya.. perhaps it happens to only a few clubs.
ok...next explain to me the need to bomb my inbox with more than necessary notices for 1 simple training. with each email is just REMINDERS after REMINDERS and REMINDERS that list no new informations. if every email contains new information i will say that the planners had some serious planning problem in planning ahead. but if they need to remind the participates for more than 10 times within with 2 months (ok, maybe 3 from the main organiser and the rest from within our our club)...i think there is serious problem with the information dissemination part. i have an evil plan. as much as they enjoy flooding my inbox maybe i will reply 10x for each mail i receieve! haha... that will flood their mail box! but then again... maybe these people crave that sort of attention!??!!?
the club is getting into my nerves! yes yes.. it is... i have a plan... complete whatever i want to and do what i want to. stop nagging at me SH. i hate it when an auntie shh shh... me when i talk or open/ close my bag or drink my water. awiyoo... i have my style mah... *sigh* sometime the club meeting is just too uncomfortably quiet. give me the power i will create some uproars! WATCH ME ROAR! haha...
ok... now back to reading those emails... argh... =N
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
5Cs
remembered i wanted to do a series of post on the 5Cs?
i had covered compassion and if u are keen to see my posting that reflects on communication do read the following 2 post.
hint
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communication = not the word spoken but the many other factors that come with it.
i had covered compassion and if u are keen to see my posting that reflects on communication do read the following 2 post.
hint
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communication = not the word spoken but the many other factors that come with it.
the sensitive one...
another post on the night staff. the sensitive one.
the night was as usual- crazy, i presume. i had resign to watever and SHUT BOTH my eyes this time. uncompleted I/O chart? ok... i just total for the night jr. chart not complete? i just fold lor but... eventually it was still not completed... *sigh* never mind lar. i don't care liao. (TELL ME WHAT SORT OF STANDARD CAN WE MAINTAIN IF WE CAN'T WORK PROFESSIONALY OR RATIONALY?!) i? ZEN baby... ZEN it out... no point killing myself. if people are here just for money and if my patients are not harm, chart uncompleted or weigh not taken i will shut up and let it be.
it was not even 7am. the night lady pushed the bed 2 back to the room (apparently they had sat her on the commode and wheeled her everywhere with them to keep an eye on her) and said loudly "i can't keep having her around everywhere i go rite? i still have plently to do leh." i took the hint and took over the patient. no need for extensive conversion of why and how, i just said "i'll take her from here". what did i do with bed 2? mm.. .i send bed 2 to toilet and wheel her infront of a mirror. bed 2 enjoy looking in the mirror lah... and guess what she did? she was squeezing her black/white heads! hahah... i thot that was way funny!
while passing the morning roll-call, someone just casaually asked another someone from the morning shift why is the disposal room so dirty, wet and smelly. lady sensitive heard it and felt people was talking abt her and started again!! "yah lar. the disposal room dirty also my fault lar!" and bang bang the things she was holding/ taking from the table where we were standing for the roll-call. *sigh* i was ZEN but felt she was totally out of her mind! nobody said anything about her being the one that make the room that way wat?! if i am younger by 5-8yrs, i may be kicking up a fussy about her damn behaviour. but i am too old to get involve in such childish act or... am i wiser or am i just too bo-chap? i don't know.
i remember she ever said this sentence "ya lar. i am the most useless SSN around lar." in the span of 2 days. i feel sad for her although i am displeased and offended by her. her childhood may had mould her to be what she is now but that should never be an excuse for her to behave that way.
like a clay, the past had mould us into the present shape. but we hold the power to change the 'mould' of this clay! we can choose to put that disfigured clay work into the furnance and forever be fixed in it or choose to destroy the work and remould ourselves using that same clay. *sigh*... people ah...
the night was as usual- crazy, i presume. i had resign to watever and SHUT BOTH my eyes this time. uncompleted I/O chart? ok... i just total for the night jr. chart not complete? i just fold lor but... eventually it was still not completed... *sigh* never mind lar. i don't care liao. (TELL ME WHAT SORT OF STANDARD CAN WE MAINTAIN IF WE CAN'T WORK PROFESSIONALY OR RATIONALY?!) i? ZEN baby... ZEN it out... no point killing myself. if people are here just for money and if my patients are not harm, chart uncompleted or weigh not taken i will shut up and let it be.
it was not even 7am. the night lady pushed the bed 2 back to the room (apparently they had sat her on the commode and wheeled her everywhere with them to keep an eye on her) and said loudly "i can't keep having her around everywhere i go rite? i still have plently to do leh." i took the hint and took over the patient. no need for extensive conversion of why and how, i just said "i'll take her from here". what did i do with bed 2? mm.. .i send bed 2 to toilet and wheel her infront of a mirror. bed 2 enjoy looking in the mirror lah... and guess what she did? she was squeezing her black/white heads! hahah... i thot that was way funny!
while passing the morning roll-call, someone just casaually asked another someone from the morning shift why is the disposal room so dirty, wet and smelly. lady sensitive heard it and felt people was talking abt her and started again!! "yah lar. the disposal room dirty also my fault lar!" and bang bang the things she was holding/ taking from the table where we were standing for the roll-call. *sigh* i was ZEN but felt she was totally out of her mind! nobody said anything about her being the one that make the room that way wat?! if i am younger by 5-8yrs, i may be kicking up a fussy about her damn behaviour. but i am too old to get involve in such childish act or... am i wiser or am i just too bo-chap? i don't know.
i remember she ever said this sentence "ya lar. i am the most useless SSN around lar." in the span of 2 days. i feel sad for her although i am displeased and offended by her. her childhood may had mould her to be what she is now but that should never be an excuse for her to behave that way.
like a clay, the past had mould us into the present shape. but we hold the power to change the 'mould' of this clay! we can choose to put that disfigured clay work into the furnance and forever be fixed in it or choose to destroy the work and remould ourselves using that same clay. *sigh*... people ah...
sour face
my face had recently offended someone from the night shift! since i am not a morning person or an early-riser. i have this terrible face in the morning. i don't deliberately look angry or piss but i just look that way if i don't get enough sleep. but apparently people can be ultra sensitive about another person's look. perhaps soon i will recieve complaints about me being ugly and fat! =`(
back to the story...
the night shift that they had was crazy, with patients that enjoy calling for no good reason, attempting to climb out of bed and new staff that know nuts about totalling charts and are probly slow as well. the staff arrangement in my view is plain CRAZY but since i am not the one doing the staffing i will never know the stress.
so came morning. since i hate morning but knew there will be plently to do, i went early. check my assignment... damn! its jr again! and check it out! my i/c was WL that i had previously talk abt. i was already totally not in the mood! she WON'T HELP one lor... i walked into the room and check the pt, look through the charts and start hearing complaint abt the new staff and how bed 2 was giving them hell. since pple said to MAKE SURE i check through the chart and ensure all is done, i did just that lor. i ask why is the gastric aspiration not done only mah... then.... the jr from the other room screamed at me liao! *faint* initially i just kept quiet thinking its the toll from the work that had make her lost her temper but it went on and on and on. til i can take it no longer (she was screaming and with all the awaken patients listening. those not awoken yet are probly shook out of their slumber land!). i asked her in my not so friendly voice "why are you venting your anger on me?" and the reply came with a whole lot of screaming from her. from comments about my sour face to why can't i ask properly to 'ya la. i will stay back til 12pm to make sure everything is done'. HUH?! i immediately switched to ZEN mood and that was accompanied by SPACE OUT mood. my ic DID NOTHING that morning and our floater was indeed floating s...l...o...w...y in space. *sigh* only after 11am did i start waking up a little from my 'moods' but was so drained from the morning incident that if i was ever diagnosed with depression it was a great time to relapse!
reached home felt so drained that i can't be bother to eat properly. end up having the entire walnut cake in the fridge and hit the bed before 8pm and slept thru til the next morning. although i was awaken by my gastric pain and hunger, i was too tired to think about it and slipped back into slumber-land. thoughts of transfer arise once again, this time stronger than ever. *sigh* its hard to work with the bo-chap and the emotional kind. i miss Bo-jie and Frida...they are always so steady and cool.
should i call that lady or write her a note to understand what was her problem and say sorry if necessary? i thought about it but i felt a little victimised to do it. i shall just avoid her and keep my interaction with her to absolutely necessary only. yes.. that is what i will do... more in the next post.
back to the story...
the night shift that they had was crazy, with patients that enjoy calling for no good reason, attempting to climb out of bed and new staff that know nuts about totalling charts and are probly slow as well. the staff arrangement in my view is plain CRAZY but since i am not the one doing the staffing i will never know the stress.
so came morning. since i hate morning but knew there will be plently to do, i went early. check my assignment... damn! its jr again! and check it out! my i/c was WL that i had previously talk abt. i was already totally not in the mood! she WON'T HELP one lor... i walked into the room and check the pt, look through the charts and start hearing complaint abt the new staff and how bed 2 was giving them hell. since pple said to MAKE SURE i check through the chart and ensure all is done, i did just that lor. i ask why is the gastric aspiration not done only mah... then.... the jr from the other room screamed at me liao! *faint* initially i just kept quiet thinking its the toll from the work that had make her lost her temper but it went on and on and on. til i can take it no longer (she was screaming and with all the awaken patients listening. those not awoken yet are probly shook out of their slumber land!). i asked her in my not so friendly voice "why are you venting your anger on me?" and the reply came with a whole lot of screaming from her. from comments about my sour face to why can't i ask properly to 'ya la. i will stay back til 12pm to make sure everything is done'. HUH?! i immediately switched to ZEN mood and that was accompanied by SPACE OUT mood. my ic DID NOTHING that morning and our floater was indeed floating s...l...o...w...y in space. *sigh* only after 11am did i start waking up a little from my 'moods' but was so drained from the morning incident that if i was ever diagnosed with depression it was a great time to relapse!
reached home felt so drained that i can't be bother to eat properly. end up having the entire walnut cake in the fridge and hit the bed before 8pm and slept thru til the next morning. although i was awaken by my gastric pain and hunger, i was too tired to think about it and slipped back into slumber-land. thoughts of transfer arise once again, this time stronger than ever. *sigh* its hard to work with the bo-chap and the emotional kind. i miss Bo-jie and Frida...they are always so steady and cool.
should i call that lady or write her a note to understand what was her problem and say sorry if necessary? i thought about it but i felt a little victimised to do it. i shall just avoid her and keep my interaction with her to absolutely necessary only. yes.. that is what i will do... more in the next post.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
L change the world
again!! i watched the vcd again!! i love how L tried to walk upright for the kids. and the last part where he tried to cheer the boy up after leaving him in the orphanage. he tried to walk upright for him. it was so weird for him and he seems to be walking with so much effort. he tried... but it was too straining for him so he reverted back to his old ways. it was so touching!! i cried again!
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Sem. 1
the question became via my sms 1 morning by a friend's friend "how's your results?" i was wondering how does she know the result? its not release to us from curtin-cas academy yet what. then there was a string of replies. finally i get to 'check' my result today...*drunmroll*
regardless of the score (high or low) the bottomline is I PASSED all 3 of my modules. heading to the next sem. with only 1 module to tackle. i think i can breath easier...at least i hope... PEACE BABEs!
regardless of the score (high or low) the bottomline is I PASSED all 3 of my modules. heading to the next sem. with only 1 module to tackle. i think i can breath easier...at least i hope... PEACE BABEs!
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
the enemy
the enemy comes to steal, kill and destroy. but to steal wat, kill who and destroy wat? i never quite understand it beyond the simply 3 things he enjoys doing. P.Ma enlighten me the other day during her sermon.
to steal our innocence - checked he had successful done that to me! F*!
to kill our dreams - he certainly tried that on me. damn! no wonder i felt the strain.
to destroy our family/ life - phew... he had not quite reach it yet.
to steal our innocence - checked he had successful done that to me! F*!
to kill our dreams - he certainly tried that on me. damn! no wonder i felt the strain.
to destroy our family/ life - phew... he had not quite reach it yet.
Friday, July 4, 2008
prove it
a few moons ago i was a newbie too. i was the one who had to ask hundred and one questions. i was the one slow and dumb. i was the one waiting for the cue from the senior to prompt me into doing things. i was so desperate to prove that i am teachable, fast learner and lovable. the road to achieve those had with it plenty of "why" and "how". eventually with the coaching of some great people and the witnessing of some mistakes from others, i learnt and grew.
newbies are often eager to please and to prove themselves worthy. my newbie too. it hurts me to see how she is so preoccupied in doing that. i have yet to figure out what sort of person she is. i had yet to gather enough objective standing to analysis her. i am too 'attached' to her. not that i am all lovey dovey with her but the label of she is my newbie blinds me from seeing her as a co-worker and a friend. i tried! but it was useless on my part. (now i understand why some parents are totally different when dealing with their own kids vs others' kids)
having worked in this setting for a period of time, i am adjusted to what is expected and perform it as required. but this expectation gives no mercy to the newbies (regardless of who). i expect but they can't deliver and i get frustrated. *sigh*
recalling XH, i saw her as a person that wanted very much to prove she can MAKE IT. not to discuss her know-how, i know she tried very hard but no matter how this work demands can't fit into her. (or is it the other way round?) anyway, i recalled her telling others that she can do this and that. isn't it a way to prove herself to gain creditability? jumping into the limelight to gain trust and support. does it work? i think it does in lots of places (eg-sales people) its a person-marketing strategy afterall. but i don't buy that. in fact its distasteful in my view. i want to see the real stuff to be believe.
as the more my newbie tries to move nearer to me the more i bring out my rule and measure her worth. i am such a skeptic! i don't want to but i can't help it. hold her hand and guide her in love that is what i know what i ought to do. but i don't know how. i don't think i had ever had a good relationship with teachers, you see. my 1 and best mentor in life was my SP-Adeline; sadly our close relationship last only that long. after i was spiritually stable enough our relationship drifted so... *sigh* i think i suck at relationship PERIOD.
newbies are often eager to please and to prove themselves worthy. my newbie too. it hurts me to see how she is so preoccupied in doing that. i have yet to figure out what sort of person she is. i had yet to gather enough objective standing to analysis her. i am too 'attached' to her. not that i am all lovey dovey with her but the label of she is my newbie blinds me from seeing her as a co-worker and a friend. i tried! but it was useless on my part. (now i understand why some parents are totally different when dealing with their own kids vs others' kids)
having worked in this setting for a period of time, i am adjusted to what is expected and perform it as required. but this expectation gives no mercy to the newbies (regardless of who). i expect but they can't deliver and i get frustrated. *sigh*
recalling XH, i saw her as a person that wanted very much to prove she can MAKE IT. not to discuss her know-how, i know she tried very hard but no matter how this work demands can't fit into her. (or is it the other way round?) anyway, i recalled her telling others that she can do this and that. isn't it a way to prove herself to gain creditability? jumping into the limelight to gain trust and support. does it work? i think it does in lots of places (eg-sales people) its a person-marketing strategy afterall. but i don't buy that. in fact its distasteful in my view. i want to see the real stuff to be believe.
as the more my newbie tries to move nearer to me the more i bring out my rule and measure her worth. i am such a skeptic! i don't want to but i can't help it. hold her hand and guide her in love that is what i know what i ought to do. but i don't know how. i don't think i had ever had a good relationship with teachers, you see. my 1 and best mentor in life was my SP-Adeline; sadly our close relationship last only that long. after i was spiritually stable enough our relationship drifted so... *sigh* i think i suck at relationship PERIOD.
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