Sem. 1

the question became via my sms 1 morning by a friend's friend "how's your results?" i was wondering how does she know the result? its not release to us from curtin-cas academy yet what. then there was a string of replies. finally i get to 'check' my result today...*drunmroll*

regardless of the score (high or low) the bottomline is I PASSED all 3 of my modules. heading to the next sem. with only 1 module to tackle. i think i can breath easier...at least i hope... PEACE BABEs!

u thot, i think, who confirm?!

exam II, the paper was relatively easy. if i had study consistency and did my revision well, there should never be a problem with passing. but teh problem was JUST THAT! reading the question, i smirked. i knew i read these stuff before and i thot i knew all the answers. in celebration, i brought donuts for the ward girls (actually to thanks them for their hard work while i took AL to study.) and met my dear frd for lunch (that another story that i will keep to myself)

hours after the exam, i finally settle down to check the answers. damn it! was my 1st reaction, then followed by SHIT! and a whole lot of !*&@#*@!$ haha... yes.. i thot i got it RIGHT but in fact it was all WRONG! hiaz... if i fail my exams how leh? maybe jump out from level 5 bah... cuz huda said jump from level 5 sure die. really meh?? i duno... will tell u if i really jump and DIE. haha...

exam I

my 1st exam after 2 yrs of hiatus. i have hardly study, no matter how hard i tried nothing seems to entry my thick skull. damn it!

am i doom to be a skill worker with no qualification?!?! omg! that will make me not even a middle class but a working class! working class have the lowest life expectancy! so ... i have no hope to live til 80yrs old liao!! *sob* its all the fault of social injustise! damn those upper class pple how own the majority of the country's resources, leaving barely <2% of the country's resources to share among the rest of the bottom 50% of its citizens! (sorry... infor is only correct if u live in australia =P)

yes, u guess it right! i am going for my sociology exam in a few hours time thus my previous paragraph on all those socio stuff. i am confident in passing this module but i doubt if it will be a B. rather.. if i get a C+ i am ok with it.

will update on my exam II soon... afterall my next paper (Bio.) is on 12 June. i suspect i will get a D for that paper (at best). *sigh* does prayers really work? i wonder...

advance yourself!

with the increase paper chase, a person with real ability to do these is less valuable paperwise compared to a person with no actual hand-on but with tons of qualitification. excuse is - experience and skill can be gain on the job over time but qualitification is either you have it or you don't have it. hmm... but the same reasoning can work both way isn't it?

the advance diploma is recuiting again. a list of interesting topic awaits- from critical care to med-surg to psy. i wonder if i should apply then do my deg in the evening. but it will be pure madness to try to handle 2 different (yet similar) shit together. i might not even get it too. =(

ok, assume heaven is smiling at me and i get a high chance, what should i opt for? i used to enjoy med-surg (lots to learn) but recently i had development a keen interest in the topic of death. so dying is more associated with Onco the other alternative is pallative (part-time). but pallative in itself is useless unless paired with Onco (in my view). yet my prideful self urge me to try on critical care. critical care sound totally crazy! i don't really like that sort of setting (A&E - touch and go) but ICA/ ICU is pretty tempting.

afterall most of my friends (at least closer ones) from nursing course are already in their 'dream' land. 1 in A&E (although i heard he hates it there now. but... really meh?), 1 FINALLY in OT (i am happy for her), 1 had travel the world round! haha... he had been to rehab, renal and now A&E! haha... ok, i admit i am not VERY close to him. =P then another in ICU, actually 2 in ICU. argh... then me?? i am in a general-general ward,- not even a multi-discipline although we function like one. =(

back to the advance dip. the easiest to entry might well be genrotology although i don't think its any easier to study. but i don't want to do that! =( i don't want community health too. oh... wait... if i want to be a nurse practioner like those oversea- travel ard to home-visit and do clinic session sort- maybe it will be a good discipline?! hmm... interesting... let me go and dig out more... any advise?!

excited~

i am excited!!! yes...i am! i can't contend my excitment to the point that i find myself stumbling at my own words. there will be so many eassy to write and articles to read. plus presentation at the toastmaster club meeting! yippee... excitment at last. =)

i love to do presentation, be graded and recieve feedback. but along with presentation comes the attention off stage and that is something that i don't particularly like. but what the heck! let me start my 1st TM project drafting! =)

i am suppose to introduce myself to the club member. gosh! i hate this sort of topic. describe yourself lah or tell us something about you lar. *faint* how can anyone truly introduce hiim or herself in merely 10 mins? some people take a life time to find themselves and yet they may never be able to know their real life. so asking me to do it, is plain torture! *grinning teeth*

i want to study....

a few months ago, i blog abt wanting to do my advance dip but was rejected because i had not been in the force for 2 yrs. thus not meeting the requirement (according to my manager). for that i was very piss and upset. i complaint that i am old and does not have much time to waste around, blah blah blah...

just yesterday, my acting NC told me that i am allow for the application afterall! i can apply for the advance dip and Ms Tan (our boss's boss) mentioned that i could along with the normal diploma girls. cuz the girls passed out 2-3months before me, so i am seen as 'less experience' as them. when i heard that i felt a little unhappy all over again. initially when i heard it, i said "yes, i am interested" but on 2nd thots, i rejected the offer.

my hubby thot i am crazy to reject it. since the bond is only 1 yr compared to the previous 2 yrs; plus i am now eligible for application. but my thot was different. no.1- i had already apply for my deg and no.2- if i apply for med-surg/ ICU, sure won't be able to get it. but if i take geron (old folk studies) i may stand a better chance. but i don't want to do that subject! my 20-30 yrs plan does not involve nursing home nor nursing dementia pt. in fact, i am not very good with senile pts. i find it sad (for the pt) and humiliating (from a pt point of view) to be treat like a baby or being restrained. but such treatment are necessary to keep them safe.

so my plan will remain as it had been til God tell me otherwise. =) keep me safe in ur prayers as i pray for u my friend.... take care!