heaven is a wonderful...

heaven is a wonderful place,
full of glory and grace,
i want to see my saviour's face,
heaven is a wonderful place.

the more i study (regarding medicine but not medicine) the more i feel the saddness in a really ill human. not as if they want to be born that way (congenital diseases) nor can they choose to continue to live (intubate, medicine/ surgical treatment) or die. because death is a taboo word even in the westen world. if u r sick, so sick that the drs and u mutally understand the days are limited, u must continue to live even if its painful and tortmenting to u. even if u want to live, the disease will eventually come and eat u up. u can prolong that life but u can't enhance the quality of it?!

i am not against treatment and surgery. i am all for it. yet, i think pallative care is too 'new-age' for it to be used across the board. if medical-surgical trained nurses are "jacks of all trades", the pallative nurses are so too. dying is a great topic to learn, its a process helping the patient and those around him/her getting through it is not easy but certainly fulfilling. when death eventually occurs, the pallative nurse no longer is just a nurse to them but had already become family, become friend.

after my basic dip, i went for deg. and now i am doing my adv dip. what else next i sometime will think about it. masters? (so i can fulfill my dream? afterall i am not young anymore.) but i felt if i really do that, it will be just a pure persude of paper and the need for a stepping stone to the next level. think and think... i thought maybe i will do another dip. in pallative care. afterall ever one will die (and needs too!) and its a good business. =P okay economic-wise i need to think of my earning and keeping rite? but emotionally i think its a beautiful job, just like mid-wives find delivery babies beautiful. =)

so what's next in the coming 2010? i no babies, no rupture (yah, its a Godly thing) -which i wonder if i will qualify or not cuz i am really not that good girl leh and no hiccups....i think that is what i will be doing. although hopefully the babies and rupture part will come true! heheee... if i really kena brought up to heaven... then all my non-believers suritiees will pull hair liao... cuz need to pay my bond $$!! lol...