welcome to the mystic 30s.

my ideal age is 25 and 28. i had always admired people of these ages. young, full of energy and at the peak of their life. but 30s? hmm... i felt age is catching up on me. it doesn't help that i am consistently mingling with the young girls and in total disapproval with some of their behavior and thinking.

i still a very 'traditional' person. in fact i am very rooted in my chinese roots. i believe girls ought to behave this way and that way. people should have basic manners and be polite at all times to all people, of cuz if that person is not worth being so nice to...just don't even cross path if them! (if possible). but this idealogy of my is crashing down just like the encomony in some sense. only difference? the govt is not coming in to help at all! with the kids running amok with their ill-manners and total disrespects to human per-say, mr govt is focus on the other stuff like educational level and stuff. if the core of a human is not well-foundation upon, the national will breed brats and such people are sure to end up killing one and other with no sense of purpose and destiny. right.. that's just my frustration on stuff.

back to my 30s topic. my idea of being 30+ is people toil for money, lost the purpose of life and is slave to their loans and children. how sad 30s seems to me. the next admirable age is 45. female tends to be more enpowered at that age, establish and confidence. enough life experience to know what to expect and to handle them well. able to say NO, no longer winning approval but can be daring with their decision in life. at this point, if the woman is no where near the 'idea' that i had, then they had fell short of the graceful and the classy female cat. perhaps into the lovable, auntie sort. hmm... wat do i want to be? of cuz the earlier mentioned, its always been my 'dream' to grow old graceful and classy. even if i am rotting alone in my living room, i must be the most classy rotting grump ever. haha...

damn that aging process.