throw in the towel

being a leader is to be able to lead. sadly i don't think i can. unless i am sure and confident of the subject we are dealing with i am able to step forward to lead the team. sadly i can't in this research proposal thing. i am really giving it lots of thoughts if i should tell someone else to lead instead. but i fear she might think i am trying to 'siam' my 'duties' (honestly is there even a clear cut on duties or not?) anyway, try as i might but... i am truly losing that zest and even ability to do what is needed of. =(