buddy meal?! o_O?!

i don't like to precept SN. cuz there is too much responsibility. i pity those girls that have to work in a ward different from their prcp ward. cuz there is an expectation (realistic or unrealistic, i don't know) for them.

having passed their prcp, they ought to know the workflow but each ward has their own set of flow too plus different setting make it tougher. thus thus... i don't know what to do with the new girl. correct the work not their personality or attitude. that is my motto in guiding my students, of cuz unless they are really ultra slow or lazy. cuz i personally believe each personality exist with a reason- to counter the other personalities out there. so no point moulding a hugh clone of mono-personality in the ward. i am not saying the young girl has any attitude problem. i am just saying it is hard for her to become a SN in our ward just like that. i don't want to drive anyone up the wall or cry, even if i ever had done that i never meant to. i am KIND!

but...but... i never had a proper preceptor! i was a 'bastard child' in my ward to start with. having prcp in the same discipline but different ward, i had a terrible time adjusting to 'new faces'. after that, i have an almost non-existing preceptor whom i NEVER had a relationship with EVER! everything i pick up in the ward was by watching and asking. so i have no idea how i can be of help to guide the young one. i hate myself for not being nice to her, for not having time to explain things to her and how i treated her different to how i treated my prcp kid. ='( plus i am always not around for her. poor kid. how is she going to live happily ever after here???

i know i don't have great buddy friends in the ward unlike those in clicks, i am rather reserve and not many love to be with me. haha.. so how can i help her bond with the rest?! *sigh* may the power be with her... hopefully someone will adopt her in their click and perhaps if they same the common enemy (me?!) they will form a great bond?!?! (see... villains have their purpose in the world too!)

in conclusion... if u read this entry and ward as me... to help to keep a look out for our new kids on the block. or maybe teach me how to be a good 'mummy'??