alpha

i remembered a blog entry by a fellow nurse blogger (but i forgot his/her name/nick). it was something about the co-workers. how some people tries to be the alpha and steps on those below him/her. putting others down and nitpicking on others' fault.

the fear of the Lord marks the starts of wisdom- its one of those verses that were painted on a certain secondary school in the west. the Lord teaches us, to be the leader, we must 1st learn to be humble and serve (the dirty feet of those in ur team). serving is a double-edge sword. how to be perceive as serving with humility and still gain the respect vs serving and get bully? leading is a double-edge sword too. a slave driver vs a influencing leader. KPI vs team morale.

if only we exist in a 1 man island, we will not be conform by rules and policy (except for our own). things will get done the way how we want it to be. yet... human was never made to be loner (damn!) we are created to socialise and as history has it...in almost every perfect setting there will surely butt out an idiot that will ruin the entire play. adam had his eve, jesus had his judas... (hahaha... clinton had his monica l.?! haha...)

so what is my point? i have no idea too. i have drift off tangle again. maybe that's why God wants me to be among other human to help me stay in track? as for the alpha fight? hmm... i would love to be the alpha but its too much of an uphill task. without much determination and passion for worthless fight, i had decided to cruise on. afterall promotion comes from the Lord. beta? gamma? omega? oh...anything lar... take me and use me as U will, Lord.