ever heard a death rattle as loud as a drum? i had! and this time it was hard to break it to the ever-hopeful family. honestly i hate those dr/staff that wants to play it safe by giving hope to the people that are clearly at the end of the road already. no, i don't mean to hurt but at least state the fact and prepare those people.
it was clear that she was going, i told her sister- "she is not looking good." sister cried. according from my other staff, another sister had consulted a chinese 'dr' that told them that everything is well its just the phlegm that is causing the problem otherwise with that phlegm gone the patient will still be good enough to fight the disease. when i heard that i wanted to kill that so called chinese 'dr', its crazy to raise the family hope to great height only to crush it when the reality hits.
i didn't want to be down right evil by saying "ya, going to die anytime now" but honestly i stated the fact, it will be soon. but the soon came a little too soon, i tot it will be at least 1 more day but... i am glad she is no longer suffering. yet at the same time, the wailing disturbed me... so much that i got to step in and ask the family to set her off in peace. i believe when the body stop functioning, the soul/ spirit is still present. seeing the other sisters crying and calling a dead body to wake up, will really ache the leaving spirit/soul. so i asked the sisters to say something good, nice or soothing to set her free and also to send her in peace. the wailing turned to muffed crying. i felt their pain. it was the same location that their mom was packed, years ago. how weird?!
i am glad i had relieved her suffering just before i go. as the sisters held my hands and called me to thanks me, i said "i am glad that i did the last office for your sister cuz i am leaving already. seeing her relieve of her suffering i am really thankful" weird things to say hor? but of cuz i did the politically right thing by telling them to look on the brighter side and keep their spirits up.
another girl (a long-stayer) was sad too. she knew that patient was not looking well already but the wailing and crying made her wanted to cry too. lucky (God is great!), someone came to visit her and they spoke for a long time. i think that took her mind off the other patient. with the back 1/2 only left with 2 patients after the patient is brought to mortuary, i wonder can they sleep tonight or will they be spooked by the event?! hmm... i shall have the answer cm am. =)
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