the sensitive one...

another post on the night staff. the sensitive one.

the night was as usual- crazy, i presume. i had resign to watever and SHUT BOTH my eyes this time. uncompleted I/O chart? ok... i just total for the night jr. chart not complete? i just fold lor but... eventually it was still not completed... *sigh* never mind lar. i don't care liao. (TELL ME WHAT SORT OF STANDARD CAN WE MAINTAIN IF WE CAN'T WORK PROFESSIONALY OR RATIONALY?!) i? ZEN baby... ZEN it out... no point killing myself. if people are here just for money and if my patients are not harm, chart uncompleted or weigh not taken i will shut up and let it be.

it was not even 7am. the night lady pushed the bed 2 back to the room (apparently they had sat her on the commode and wheeled her everywhere with them to keep an eye on her) and said loudly "i can't keep having her around everywhere i go rite? i still have plently to do leh." i took the hint and took over the patient. no need for extensive conversion of why and how, i just said "i'll take her from here". what did i do with bed 2? mm.. .i send bed 2 to toilet and wheel her infront of a mirror. bed 2 enjoy looking in the mirror lah... and guess what she did? she was squeezing her black/white heads! hahah... i thot that was way funny!

while passing the morning roll-call, someone just casaually asked another someone from the morning shift why is the disposal room so dirty, wet and smelly. lady sensitive heard it and felt people was talking abt her and started again!! "yah lar. the disposal room dirty also my fault lar!" and bang bang the things she was holding/ taking from the table where we were standing for the roll-call. *sigh* i was ZEN but felt she was totally out of her mind! nobody said anything about her being the one that make the room that way wat?! if i am younger by 5-8yrs, i may be kicking up a fussy about her damn behaviour. but i am too old to get involve in such childish act or... am i wiser or am i just too bo-chap? i don't know.

i remember she ever said this sentence "ya lar. i am the most useless SSN around lar." in the span of 2 days. i feel sad for her although i am displeased and offended by her. her childhood may had mould her to be what she is now but that should never be an excuse for her to behave that way.

like a clay, the past had mould us into the present shape. but we hold the power to change the 'mould' of this clay! we can choose to put that disfigured clay work into the furnance and forever be fixed in it or choose to destroy the work and remould ourselves using that same clay. *sigh*... people ah...