=( .... -> =)

at the start there was nothing and then God said "let there be light" and there was light.... that was somewhere in the old testimony. then... thousands of years later, someone said that God will never give us a problem we can't handle. He will provide a way out for us when it gets too unbearable. AND HE DID! His words are still the same and His action never late. =)

part 2 of my "i won't trust u anymore" saga. today is the meet the piggy session and the entire group went. SS still dare to act friendly with me! wo.w... i just flashed my "huh? why u so friendly" look at her. i think she get the message but have no idea why i am so cold to her. i don't think i want to bother talking things out with her. why waste my dear dear time? mr leader finally sense something. he asked me "how esther?" i reply "anything lor. u r the leader mah. u happy can liao". poor him too. he must be wondering what the hell did he do to make me so upset. me??? i just don't care lor. pls don't comment and tell me to reflect upon my actions and that he did nothing wrong therefore don't deserve this sort of treatment. i also know but too bad when the bear is angry IT don't think. yes... i had downgrade to the animalistic human with no common sense anymore!

then.. that piggy got to my nerves by telling us rubbish! tell us, this don't need that don't want. i think she, herself isn't answering to the questions lor. but since she is the one grading us, heck that lar! just do whatever to please her lor. then after 1 big loop, she then mentioned what she just cancelled from our slides and said that should be added in too. aiyoo... my dear LECTURERS pls make up all of your minds!! she is not the 1st lor.

3 hours later, i had barely read up on my test topics and had briefly slept for 1 hour. i went in for the test. out of the 30 mcq i am sure i will get at least 20 correct. short answer questions (20 marks) i will be smiling if i get 10! get the picture? i think i will pass. actually DH isn't that terrible lar. just that i am a rebellious 30+ yrs old ah auntie that wants to sing the opposite key as her (for the fun of it)! =P but still... my mood had not changed a bit. i was hating every minute of it! the noisy pple chatting about the answers and the "die liao lar" that was over stimulating my senses. i want to go on a killing spree!!!! but i was normal enough not to do so.

as i was walking out of the campus... i met BEE!!! =)) wat a suprise for me!! she was staring at me, smiling but because she had put on much weight i was scare to recongise the wrong person. til she stretch her arms! yippeeee!!!! my fav idol!!! *smack smack* we spent an hour talking. not about me but just catching up. it was warm and peaceful. i love it. she has some special power to calm my crazy emotion since a long time ago. =) thank God for her, i feel better and is regaining my pose as the same old me. =))

same that she is indeed leaving singapore. no idea where yet but certainly out of singapore. wish i can go visit her when she is settled down. =)) will miss her much. but i am sure someday when i am sad... she will appear out of nowhere like she always do. =)