after reading a friend's blog entry, i promptly came to my dashboard on blogspot and deleted a previous entry. i still don't regret what i had said. the frustration is real and so is the tingle of sadness. but my actions/ speech as a fellow believer to the new leader shall be more merciful.
still i don't believe in loving blindly. i will acknowledge you as my new leader, i will accept the weird rostering, i will take the remarks and unreasonable requests (as least in my views) but once respect and awe is lost, it is forever. good leaders are hard to come by, for my past 20+ yrs, i had only encounter 2 to 3 persons that are worthy to be call GOOD. and i realise these are the people who stick by their principles and remain strong in their believes. oh how i inspire to be them but sadly i hate frontal crashes. for a while i will struggle to maintain what i believe in but after a long time of persecution... i realise i will simply surrender and go with the flow. =( how sad! "only dead fishes go with the flow!" and i suppose part of me is dying already! *sniff*
what's going on with the 'energy' in the workplace? maybe the charka not smooth lar! or maybe the senior who had left us had along with them moved the pillars of standards and expectations from the workplace? leaving the new girls (not all, ok!) nursing in the "like this can, like that also not wrong lar" cradle of growth? or maybe its just the quality of the new girls?! i DUNOE! cuz i am no perfect being. the more i complaint the more it will come back to haunt me. so from now on i will just sit, act blurrrr... (i think i am good at that) and do the necessary lor. no more, no less. perhaps that is the only way to live well, sleep well, eat well and not have any stress induced gastric flu. =_=||
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