i am what i am

incident 1
i realised that there is this 1 girl that often look unhappy whenever i talk during discussion. she must be thinking that i am overbearing, not leader but still act as if is. i agree i am a bit strong in my views and most of the time i think its the best. lol. but hor... if the leader is so gentle and everyone want to spend hours after hours just to talk opps... i meant discuss; i don't want lor... i love to spend the time thinking, sleeping, eating, shitting, watching tv (even if i had seen that show a million times!).

so today she show that face again... *sigh* the only time i see her hype up and happy is when the leader is indeed taking charge! lol... so... what i did? i bluff bluff ask for her views and thoughts and when she said nothing/ agreed with me... i fast fast skip her and settle the issue. lol. idiotic right? she might had some real concern but i just did the 'if u don't like me, i don't have to like u too' stunt again. lol. i want to slap myself sometime!

incident 2
there was a meeting, 2 person didn't show up. whatever reason it was i didn't bother cuz the meeting wasn't something very productive and plus i was late myself. heehee... (double standard)

anyway...so when we tried to brief them what's going on and what to prepare for the next meeting, 1 person slowly drift off to talk to someone else. i fume sia... the environment was so noisy already and u never go meeting just now and now still like that. so i said "xyz can listen to this 1st or not? don't let pple repeat 2 time lar" my tone must be terrible but maybe i meant it! lol!! so xyz return to the briefing the gentle leader so nice... repeat everything again. then later xyz and her someone else said sorry and explain her behavior, i joke joke and said never mind.

actually i really never mind lar. just that at that point of time, i think basic respect should had been observed lor. but whatever and however...gentle leader that's ur call to manage the grp lar. even if it's not the style that i prefer or even if i think the management should had been better, i don't bother lar. why make enemies when we can make love!? lol... figure of speech only not really that act of .... lol...