tired n bored

had been clearing stuff from the house. it had been really tiring but rewarding to see the useless stuffs cleared. but the more i dig the more such useless junk pops out. am i living in a can or worms or what? i am so bored with all those manual work now! yet i had started and now the house is in a big mess! gosh!! i can't stop til i have at least clear the standing junk. my energy is totally drained! lucky for me, no cell at my place this week so i can let the junk stock up over the weekend! =) the only perk? *sigh*

Faith

faith is believing despite not seeing. there was once a pastor who tried to explain faith, he describe it as: when we sit on a chair we trust that it will hold out weight and that is fatih of some sort. very abstract but at that time, i didn't really have an issue with having faith in God so i didn't think much of it.

recently i found another way of making faith easy to understand- by my experience. =) being preg. i realise there are days i would wake up feeling normal - not preg. at all. without the ultra super bump some mummies are spotted with, i just feel fine and perhaps a little fatter. sometime i would get a little panicky and wonder if the baby is indeed inside me and growing?! it really take faith to believe in what may not be seen with the nake eyes but still it is indeed there cuz we can sense it and there is always signs of it being present. for my case- an amazing dark line that appear out of nowhere running down the middle of my tummy. =)) how amazing!! =))

there are times when God seems really really real - esp. when He answer a prayer for a particular thing, there are times when we feel Him far and wonder if He really care or even hear our cries. regardless of them all, God is still present and it takes faith to believe He is indeed there for us. =)) On days of my ultrasound, i may get to see little baby's heartbeat and get affirmed of this little life-force in me but on days when i don't get to see that pounding little heart, i believe that the little life substaining organ is still present and pumping. =)

being who and what i am today had allow me to understand God a little deeper but yet His ways are higher and not mine, i don't think i will ever fully understand how He feels for all of us earthlings. =) yet i am glad to devote my life time to know Him more each day and season of my life. =)

funny new relevation.

since i am not working for the time being, i had been spending a good amount of time with my elder sister and mum. i don't think i had ever spent that much time with my family members. since i don't enjoy prolong hours of social interaction at times. but these time spent recently had been really enjoyable and at times funny. as usual mum will update us on lives of people whom i ought to know, actually i think i do but i can't match names to those faces which i may/ may not had seen years ago! =P

then recently mummy said something which made my elder sister and i bursted into laughter! =) a friend of my mum said to her once that my elder sister is the sort that is very pretty @ 1st sight and i am the sort that is pretty to look @ for a long time. but if my mummy was to have boys, they will look really handsome. haha... of cuz that must be before my brothers were borne. but it was really funny. anyway my brothers were actually very cute and handsome when they were kids now... hmm.. they are just cute. LOL.... =P

MTV-China: oldies review

hahaha... i realised i am an oldie!! cuz all the songs that i thot i had enjoyed and able to sing along are those in the oldies segment! hahaha... barely 30s and i am old? felt weird but i suppose with the new generation that matures and ages ever so fast, i am indeed and oldie? lol... health related books which states 60s as the young-old seriously ought to review it! haha... 60s may be considered the mega dino-age range and for those above 60s perhaps to the young kids are considered fossiles?! i can't imagine that! heehee...

oldies

its amazing how people love to look back and magnify the events past. perhaps that's what make us human, having the ability to reflect and improve?

some songs popped up in my brain this evening and i remembered singing them during my growing years (now is considered my aging years! LOL). the comfort they brought me and how they had touched me, that even listening to them again tonight; tears are welling up! wonder if you too have those sort of memories for certain songs in your life?

animals-God's creations

how interesting! animals can communicate thru ultra-sonic waves and they can even pick up tiny small sonic waves/ sounds made in the earthcrust! their acute sense of smelling to track down their own kinds/ the others must be a God given gift!

i wonder why when the human race ate from the forbidden fruit of wisdom didn't they pick up any of those traits? hmm... maybe becoz' they forgot to chew thru the food (fruit) or... they didn't finish the 'food on the plate' (fruit) as their parents would had taught them?! LOL... lame and bad joke material huh?! =P

i think its amazing how God create us all different and unique, all creatures (man and animals) AMAZING....

transit

the excitment of finally getting it was soon overwhelmed by the side effects that it brought. bringing me much frustration but when the danger alarms rung, i stuck my tail between my legs cursing myself for harming the helpless ones. sigh... its really not easy, really not. sigh...